after what i just heard from today .. that just triggered me. that motherfucking hurt. just to hear that recently. that really hurt .. i don't get how you're able to do that behind my back .. but i guess you don't really care .. and you don't really think about me as much when you're acting like that .. but i just want you to know that it hurts knowing you can act like that when you're taken. when you're in a relationship. when you're committed to me. you shouldn't be doing all that but you are. i told you to not even do all that but it only lasts for the moment when you feel bad .. but then you get back to doing it again. whats hard is that .. you never really even stopped .. even if i tell you, you don't stop .. you say you'll change but nothing really ever changes .. what hurts is how you're not even trying to change for us. honestly .. just tell me the stuff that you're able to do actually. don't tell me you'll do this and i'll actually expect it because i get disappointed .. i'm your fucking girl. i'm your only girl. you should only be doing that shit to me. and only me. fuck.

we really need a serious talk together about how we really feel inside when we're hurting. but the thing is .. i can't really even spill out everything that i feel because you seem to be annoyed. so i don't know what to do when we should be letting eachother know how we feel when we hurt. when we have a problem we should talk it out but you don't really listen, you listen for the moment but then it'll be gone and you'll go back to your business. we need to change alright, because problems will always be coming back. all i want for you is to change on your own and like .. learn on your own, like .. grow up.we just really need to change shit up and smarten up.

all i'm just doing is trying to understand for you. i'm trying to be there for you. even if you're mad at me, i'll be the one to comfort you. i take in what's wrong about us. i'm the one who tries to fix us. i'm just trying to be the best. i'm giving you my all even if i don't get all of it back. i'm waiting for you to give me your all. i'm waiting for you to change. i'm waiting for you to actually trust me. i'm waiting for you to love me.

i'm waiting for you to stop hurting me.

you've hurt me so much. pero go parin ako ng go. nasasaktan na nga ako, di mo pa tinitigilan mga ginagawa mo. you go behind my back so much. you treat me like i'm unimportant. you tell me all this hurtful shit. you leave me at night. you leave me on monthsaries. you go to your friends before me. you make me second option. you tell me things and i believe it but next thing i know it you're not gonna be able to make it. pinapaasa mo ako. i've gotten so many heartaches from you. and i'm still here taking it all up. i know you've been hurt too in the past, but all i'm doing is trying to get you out of the past and be happy with me in the present. but you're hurting me like how theyve hurt you in the past. just because you don't wanna get hurt again. i'm not gonna hurt you like that. i'm still here trying aren't i. i'm trying not to be like them and leave you so easily. but you give me shit. you treat me like shit. you make me feel unimportant. you hurt me on purpose. you know you're hurting me but you don't stop.
and in the end, all i'm really doing is just babying you. i'm still on your side. i still love you with all my heart, even if you hurt me and break my heart so many times, my heart still beats for you.

all i just want is .. for you to treat me right .. treat me as your one and only girlfriend .. stop hurting me like i'm nothing to you .. give me all your loving .. and be happy with me. that's honestly all i want ..