way back then, i told myself not to go so serious and so attached so i wouldn't get hurt. but look at me now, i went over and fell too hard. this is what i got myself into, so i need to fix it up. i love you but i don't wanna hurt nomore, i don't wanna keep expecting that you'll change for good. because i know. i know that everythings gonna come up again so i just wanna let that go, i wanna get used to it so i won't expect and get hurt all over again. i just wanna be prepared. i told myself, and i told you that maybe i should get used to some things. you told me not to, you told me you'll stop, but you kept going and i got hurt all over again. so instead, i'll get used to it on my own. maybe it would be good for us, cause that way i wouldn't be so hard on you. that way you could get what you want. a little freedom. i just hope though when you get your freedom back bit by bit, i don't want you to forget about me. but for me, just incase, i should be prepared for when you leave me. just expecting the worse would help a little and lessen the pain. i guess ..