smoking and drinking. i can't believe that i'm dating someone who does that .. but i shouldn't get mad cos it was my decision back then, i chose to be with you and i knew that you were into that shit so i shouldn't be complaining and shit. but it hurts me at times where you say you're going to drink and shit and just knowing that you smoke just only when i'm not there it's like idk. it just gets to me but i can't do anything about it and i can't tell you to stop doing it for me cos i know that its your " fun " or " need " and i know that you need it at times cos i guess you " need " it. like you're 18 and yeah .. i guess that's what teenagers do now right? but eh . i just don't know. it hurts me knowing you're involved with the stuff i hate.